The one thing I would have liked to be able to do was sleep. But I had this monstrous insomnia. I just couldn’t sleep. I’d lie there all night, for ten years, not being able to sleep, and by the end I had this sleep deprivation that was absolutely monstrous. The cell just became my world and I couldn’t get out of it, not even into sleep.
It’s so claustrophobic in there. I know claustrophobia is a condition, but I think that place was claustrophobic. It got to the point where absolutely anything that changed, like if I saw snow falling outside, was what allowed me to survive.
