I hear you.
Here’s my stake: if you want so desperately to protect life, then you must do it across the spectrum: no capital punishment, no war, no collateral damage. Can you subscribe to that? Will you house, love, and educate the unwanted as they deserve to be loved, housed, and educated?
If so, then I’m pro-life, but if you vacillate anywhere on that triad, you are lost, imo.