Using colored beads to remind yourself that you will die soon

I’m arguing that the second hand isn’t even there. You ask where “I” go when I fall asleep. I ask where “I” am when “I” am awake? Is there any evidence that there’s an “I” at all? As ironic as it sounds, I don’t believe I exist. Decartes’ sleight of hand is unconvincing, I don’t think a thinker needs to exist to think.