Don't fear ED. It just happens, it blows (ha!), But there is so much more to close intimacy.
I am afraid because I am now officially 39. I have close friends that I continually reject, a drive to go... Somewhere I don't understand, and little realistic safety net. I know what I need to do, but self sabotage at every step.
This makes me afraid because I care about my loved ones, yet all I see are my own flaws.
Oh, and I want to hug a bear. Which I think is Remedial Self Sabotage