I wish there were an identity I could grab onto and call my own. My whole family is Democrats, all the way back into history. And I mostly have registered as Dem. But in the last 5 years or so, my entire outlook has shifted away from that designation.
For example, having served in my town’s government, I saw first hand all the waste, graft and junk built into the system. It’s just expected. Not even anything back room & shady. All out in the open in plain view. The favoritism and tribalism are simply built into the system: to favor big business over small. To favor corporations over people. And to favor the rich over the middle class, the middle class over the poor, whites over people of color, and males over females. Simply built into the structure. To change it? Bit by bit, if at all possible. Sure, a good fight. But a tiring fight and a preposterous fight.
And so I started to gradually disassociate from being a Democrat, even though I believe in all the social things Dems typically stand for. There’s a lot that I hate about being a D, such as the ethos that a government program is the usual solution. It’s not, and I’ve seen how it’s not. Nor is a corporate or church solution a solution!!! None of the above.
As a “team” the whole D thing falls flat for me, now. So does the R thing, the L thing, the Green thing and the I thing, if there ever even was an I thing. And then I realized it’s the WHOLE thing that’s disgusting to me. So I’d rather put my energy elsewhere, into shit that matters, like my career, kids and pastimes.
Politicians and politics of all parties will come and go, just like the WWF belt title holder jumping off the top buckle to break other freaks like boys.