This is all very personal, so if that bothers you, don’t bother reading. I just need an outlet.
This gal is getting off opioids today, after 3+ years of daily use, I can’t believe I’m actually doing this. It’s even worse because the opioids have actually helped me in so many ways and helped my fucked-up Aspergers-depressed-anxious mind somehow deal with this world. But our current drug policy makes it impossible me to continue this way. Maybe it’s for the better, I don’t know, all I know is that for me personally it’s the perfect medine.
In any case, I’m gonna be spending the next few weeks on my couch. I’m doing a sort of “open rehab”, where I get the necessary prescribed medication with me and in exchange I do an occasional drug test to show I’m clean. Meanwhile, I need something, anything, to keep my mind off the agony. I could fill this post with endless self-pitying details, but that would be pointless because I’m the one who got myself in this situation.
What TV shows should I watch? I like things like Firefly, Arrested Development, Archer, Breaking Bad, Twin Peaks, Wolf’s Rain, Ginga Nagareboshi Gin, Spaced, American Dad, Office (UK), etc.
As far as movies go, I love Synecdoche, New York, anything by David Lynch, Studio Ghibli’s and Hayao Miyazaki’s work, Happiness, The Room, Irreversible, Shayn of the Death etc. etc.
I want something immersive and beautiful. Maybe I’ll watch Synecdoche, New York again. I got a Ghost in the Shell box with both the movies as a gift and I should probably watch those. I’m currently watching Frozen (haven’t seen any Disney movies in forever) and it’s really resonating me with its’ Scandinavian theme and those Lapland mountains. I cried like a maniac during the song Let It Go - these withdrawals make me very emotional, and yet I keep seeking things that make me feel nostalgic, pointlessly seeking some deeper insight into who I am.
What’s the point of this blabbering? I’m just hoping someone will give me some tips on how to survive. Thanks to the correct medication and past experience, I know how to deal with, or at least cope with, withdrawals,though I’m always open to advice. But most of all, I just want something to do, someone to talk to. I know BoingBoingers have a great taste in, well, everything. I’m also an avid gamer with Xbox360 and Steam, so if I have the energy, I’d love to hear some game ideas.
Day one, here we go. Wish me luck. If you can look past the unapologetically self-centric talk, I’d respect what BB commenters have to say.