Yeah, I’m no fan of the Steppers, I speak as an ex-user, but I’ve plenty of friends who work in that field, and they’re not either.
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Doing the 12 steps thing is not very common here (don’t know any user who has done it), especially since it’s a religious thing; we’re very non-religious folk, or at the very least like to keep it separate from everything else. Recovery should be about empowering the user, not telling him/her that “you can’t do this on your own”, which also seems to be the motto of many American rehab centers. Then again, they need you to need them for them to be profitable - that’s why non-profit rehab is a good thing.
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Survival…?! HA! Tell me about it, at least your Asperger’s leaves you functional, mine does not. I have never been able to work, live independently, or do anything most people take for granted. There’s a reason my username is what it is - I can’t relate to any member of the species Homo sapiens sapiens. I may look like them, but I am not like them. I can’t even relate to my own family. I have been stuck, in this bed for over 4 years, and there’s fuck all I can do about changing my current situation. Not a single thing. This country doesn’t have anything remotely resembling a HEALTH service, at best it’s a ‘not sick’ service, at worst…? A ‘deliberately making people sick’ service.
I am of the firm belief that cannabis is the only thing that will help me but, stuck where I am, I can’t grow it (not that I really understand how to, anyway, so that’s kind of a moot point). I do know of someone who might have access to CBD oil, but it’s a Catch-22; I need the oil to enable me to make myself understood but, in order to possibly obtain the oil, I need to explain why I need it, and explaining things like that to people has always proved impossible.
I’m sorry I didn’t mean this to turn into a rant, I’ve hijacked your thread, I apologise. Don’t worry, I don’t think I’ll be around here long, I fully expect to be banned soon. If I’m still able to post here by the end of the first week of next month, I’ll be EXTREMELY surprised.
By the way, do you actually mean ‘opioids’ - or ‘opiates’…? I’m not being pedantic, sometimes they’re used incorrectly - or interchangeably - even by people whose first language is English, and I’ve actually had people say “Same thing, innit…?”, when I’ve pointed out that the drug they’re describing is the other one.
Sorry for the hijack, I’ll go away. Feel like I’m gonna chuck up again, anyway (apologies if TMI). I’m also sorry that I can’t offer you anything constructive.
Please feel free to delete this if it’s inappropriate (WTF’s ‘appropriate’, anyway…? Seriously, I’ve no fucking clue…).
Sorry that things suck so bad for you, and that your country’s health services are that bad. The reason I’ve been so functional the last few years is mostly the opioid use; though I wouldn’t call only now attending high-school-level education or having no social life highly functional, maybe “just hanging in there”, but these things are relative and it’s definitely much better than it used to be. Just being at home without doing anything for years at a time is something I can relate to, so I feel your pain.
I used to find that cannabis helped me, but after some years it started making me feel somewhat anxious so I quit using it for that purpose. If you can ever try it, a medication called pregabalin (Lyrica) helps with my Aspergers.
Oh don’t worry, this thread is about so many things at its heart that you’re quite on-topic. Everyone needs some place to vent out steam.
I really do mean opioids. Though I am familiar with opiates, too, but mostly opioids.
Here are some things to watch: http://www.ubu.com/film/greenaway.html
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Thanks, those seem interesting!
If people are wondering, I’m doing good at the moment. Just had a minor freak-out a few days ago when I realized that my school starts next week. I really don’t know if I’m ready or how I’ll manage, but at the same time, having some structure in my daily life might help. And seeing my classmates will be nice, too, I get to talk to people who have no idea about my opioid addiction or recovery and just think about everything else.
Plus, I get to spend a lot of time in nature at school. Plus, I really do love studying, especially at home independently which is what most of my school consists of.
I kind of wanted to get a hair-cut and go shopping for new clothes before school. Now I kind of have to rush if I still want to do it. Not that it’s super important that it happens before school starts, but it would’ve been nice, a new start (or rather, new way of living) and all.
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If you can’t do both, the haircut will be the bigger picker-upper, but only if you know the hairdresser and know they will do a good job. Getting a bad haircut is very depressing!
But if things do go wrong…
Q: What’s the difference between a bad haircut and a good one?
A: About six weeks. 
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Well, it looks like I won’t be getting a haircut before school starts. I want to do it at the beauty school because it costs half the amount that every regular place charges (15€ saved is a lot for me!). Plus they are quite good at there, especially since I’m getting someone who’s in their last year to do my hair. My appointment won’t be till week 7 (there was no way for me to get it during next week because of school), but oh well.
I just want a really, really short haircut, which is hard to do completely wrong. I shaved my head over a year ago (I used to have dreadlocks and wanted something new) and have just let it grow naturally since. I was afraid of how I’d look bald, but I grew to like it so much that having shoulder-length hair now feels just wrong. If I really don’t like the new haircut, I can just shave it again, so I’m not really worried.
But new clothes… I should go to the local UFF (kinda like Goodwill) tomorrow or Saturday. A new shirt (or maybe some pants) will certainly help!
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