Fuck Today (Part 1)

Thing is, all of the gamefish are migratory, and only here for days to a few months. These stripers are on their way from New England down the coast. That said, yeah, the pollution is a bummer, and the big one is PCB’s from GE’s dumping them hundreds of miles upriver. Even if you don’t eat them it’s fun. I had a 10.5 lb bluefish towing me to Brooklyn and giving me arm cramps a few weeks ago.

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A good man passed away this morning, from cystic fibrosis, at 33. While I never had the chance to meet him face to face, we were related by marriage and interacted online from time to time. His family, who include some of my loved ones, are grieving, and I feel their pain more than I feel I have a right to.

He was clearly one of those rare people who leaves the world a better place for having been in it. RIP Samuel.

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Also, quick PSA: A lung transplant a few years ago gave Sam the chance to become a father and experience the first few years of his daughters’ life. Please consider becoming an organ donor.

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Sorry to hear of Sam’s suffering. I hope the skin grafts took and you’re at least physically feeling better.

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Thank you. I’m superficially about 75-80% of the way there, but every little thing is taking 10 times the effort and leaving me exhausted.

Still, every day is better than the one before!

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I’m less worried about the pitch being flooded than I am about Carlisle being flooded again. That’s the fourth time in twelve years.

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WHAT ARE THE ROMAN NUMERALS I V X C L M ?:weary::weary:
JUST WONDERING…

Looks like a step back to the bad old days

Note that British football hooligans have had strong links with fascism in the past. I don’t think it was a coincidence that it happened at Brighton and Hove Albion, which is a very LGBT friendly area.

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I see nothing to hope for. I see no way to realistically exit the mess I’m in or any hope at any way of having financial independence. Most of all I see no hope of making a niche for myself where I feel part of something rather than ‘the thing that forced itself here that we just put up with.’

Right now the only thing keeping me from blowing my brains out is living long enough to maybe show my niece that she can do better and that she won’t have just my parents as her biggest influince. I love my family, but given how horrified my folks are of same sex, interracial, or anything that isn’t far FAR right? Then again I’m the guy living with his family so no matter how much help i am it always feels like I’m leeching, which effectivly ruins any credibility i have.

I’m tired of just going either out of habit or out of some ‘maybe’ that deep down I know is ‘stop deluding yourself.’ However i can’t just ‘quit.’

Does the road wind up-hill all the way?
Yes, to the very end.
Will the day’s journey take the whole long day?
From morn to night, my friend.

But is there for the night a resting-place?
A roof for when the slow dark hours begin.
May not the darkness hide it from my face?
You cannot miss that inn.

Shall I meet other wayfarers at night?
Those who have gone before.
Then must I knock, or call when just in sight?
They will not keep you standing at that door.

Shall I find comfort, travel-sore and weak?
Of labour you shall find the sum.
Will there be beds for me and all who seek?
Yea, beds for all who come.

  • CHRISTINA ROSSETTI
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Stick to that thought. Also, if it’s any help: been there. It doesn’t even need to be your niece (nor mine, in my case).
But there are people out there you will have positive, lasting influence on.

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WHOA, WHOA, WHOA !!!

eesh, don’t post 73 year old musical heroes in the fuck today category. For a second I thought he had gone the way of George Duke, and I was about to be sad and upset

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I knew a lady who said she’d been on the verge of suicide, so she just stepped out the door and kept going - figured she’d see how far she could get on the kindness of strangers and sheer unwillingness to stop. She slept in a lot of scary places and was homeless for a long time, but in the end it worked out for her. Not something to attempt on a whim in a cold climate, but desperate people do cast caution to the wind, every day… and most of them live, and some of them prosper.

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shallpass

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I’m at the dentist, with my 14 year old son, who is having a root canal.

Two teeth got badly broken playing at a birthday party. And I’m happy for modern dentistry - a hundred years ago he probably would have just lost the teeth. But God this is stressful, just sitting here, hoping it goes well, trying to figure out if his second tooth which didn’t quite break to the pulp is going to need a root canal also. Wondering how much lifetime hassle he’s going to have with his teeth as a consequence

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Wow, early lesson in work hard, play hard?

Kids do manage to damage themselves in the most surprising ways.

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My 3-year-old threw up three times last night. This weird, gross brown stuff like I’ve never seen. I had to put her in a bath in the middle of the night over her screaming objections. We’ve got a mountain of laundry to do. I can still smell it.

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Half of the LEDs on my SAD light have failed. It might explain why I have been rapidly getting more depressed over the last week.

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There’s plenty of other reasons I can think of. :thinking:

But yeah, that sucks.

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Got the hospital bill for my recent pressure cooker accident.

Even without the additional bills from the anesthesiologist, visiting nurses, and the original ER that turfed me to the other hospital, it comes to more than a decent house in my area. All together it’s pushing $200K.

I’ve applied for various assistance, but I’m really wishing I lived in a civilized country.

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