Got into a discussion about writing. To which I was offered some rather bleak sounding advice.
Writing will destroy you. 99% certain, you will never gain an audience. There are brilliant people writing who never sell a word. You will walk through worlds of majesty, and no-one will ever care.
If you write, do it because you will die if you don’t, but don’t ever expect recognition, or anything other than a kick in the teeth. That’s not what this industry is about.
This sounds annoyingly like ‘write for you.’ Which to me comes off more as ‘go fuck yourself.’
I know the chances of me making a career of things is about as good as getting to the moon by flapping my arms, but carer is less ‘goal’ and more ‘hey that’d be pretty damned cool’ I’m more focused on ‘this is something I can actually do and sorta don’t suck at.’
My core issue is… I’d maybe feel less pissed off about the non-everything in finding an audiance if I had other options for things to do that don’t depend on others for the core process I am actually capable of.
I’m tired of it feeling like anything I even halfway don’t hate down to my bones getting shit on and me getting told it won’t matter. I’m tired of the people speaking these things coming off less helpful and more ‘I am better than you I have accepted how things are. Bow Down’ I know a large part of this is reactionary anger, but knowing doesn’t make it feel any less like I’m bring handed a shit sandwich and told to take a bite.
At the same time I know there is wisdom in the sentiment so as angry as I am at constantky being told ‘give up you are nothing’ I have to admit the people spesking probably are doing so from a desire to help. It just comes off as incredibly spiteful.
Then again ‘shut up and grow a pair’ seems to apply.