That is great. I am so happy for you to find acceptance at work! Now we just need to get to where that is not a surprising thing. My youngest went through that at their job, and now goes by their actual gender and chosen name there with no blowback at all. The world is changing.
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Thanks, itās great that your youngest found acceptance. The world is indeed changing and itās not just the young changing with it. The two servers I was talking with are both my age and my boss is in his 40ās I think.
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Sigh. Iām pushing 60 and still feel young. It is what you make it!
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So, my estrogen dose was lowered again. I canāt focus on anything and completely broke down at work last night, just when things were starting to go really well there. Iām a complete mess and just want to curl up in a ball and cry, but thatās not possible.
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Then they still are good at work. If you think itās the dosage then youāve found the problem and thatās part way to fixing it.
You got this, even if you feel shit today. Besides, thereās nothing wrong with having a cry first before you do the next bit. The crap bit passes and tears help it go more easily, trust me.
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Thanks, I was filling in for someone, went into sensory overload and was unable to regulate any emotions after that. Everyone was great about it last night, but this is coming after I was just given more responsibilities and told by the co-owner that my boss has been impressed by me, which means a lot because between my boss, his wife and the co-owner, Iām dealing with an engineer and two phdāsāso now I feel like an asshole.
I unfortunately have to wait until the second week of January before my next blood draw, so Iām stuck on this dose for a while.
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Thatās just 4 weeks away. You can do this.
They clearly like and respect you at work and youāre not an asshole because of a bad day, especially if they were good about it.
Feel like chucking the day in the bin and starting over tomorrow? Fair enough. Do a thing for you first then worry about later, OK?
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I will give that a try, thanks.
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Anytime.
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I donāt know if this will help, but biologically this is what women go through just before menstruation. Hormone levels shift: estrogen and progesterone levels drop and prostaglandin levels rise. Itās a roller coaster, basically. I canāt imagine theyāre trying to replicate that hormonal process with you, but thatās what it sounds like from the outside.
I donāt know how to fix it, but every woman whoās ever suffered from PMS is totally there with you right now!
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Nope, my blood estrogen levels are just too high. I started injections at .5ml/week, then I was at .4ml for 3 weeks, now at .3ml. I never fully adjusted to the .4, so .3 is hitting me hard.
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Iām sorry! Have a hug!
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Gut check time.
Tomorrow morning, we close on a big financial commitment (i.e. massive debt), in service to Project GTFO: TX-edition.
U.S. economy is a bit wobbly, the churn rate in tech jobs is unrelenting, we are nearing retirement age, and we have yet to locate our next homebase (still trying to aim for something along US 81). The signing of the documents will certainly be a big āno turning back nowā moment.
Just ahead on the horizon: job changes, moving house, turning our backs on our homegrown food installations and most importantly stepping out of a 30-year-long network of friends who have watched our backs (as we do theirs).
But we are done with Texas.
Itās been a good run, Austin.
Breathing.
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Holy moly!
Thatās a lot, but I know you would have taken your time to make sure it was the right next step, so be assured you are not making a terrible mistake. Itāll be hard, not having local support like that ā so, so hard! ā but with the internet, youāll stay connected, no worries about that.
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Iām sorry you had to make the choice to leave because of assholes and dickheadsā¦
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Iām sorry you felt the need to make such drastic changesā¦
ā¦but I understand. Best of luck in finding a supportive place to live that meets your needs.
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I wish I could come up with some words of inspiration that didnāt sound like a scene from every high school sports movie of the last 30 yearsā¦ Iām sorry youāve reached the point where you have to make such a drastic change; if it helps, remember that you have lots of people who are keeping you in our thoughts.
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Iām so sorry that youāre having to do this, but you need to take care of yourselves. I hope you find the perfect homebase for the next 30 years.
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