All the people around him who admitted he didn’t expect to become president and was shocked when it happened. All the times during his presidency when he talked about the sacrifices he was making to be president, with resentment in his voice…
Yeah, that struck me at the time, when, within a few days, he claimed to have total power but also no responsibility.
Back in April, I read about how Trump had gone back to planning his fantasy parade for this 4th of July, with the military - the plan previous rejected for being far too expensive. There’s been almost no news about it since, except that it’s costing some multiple of last year’s event, so presumably it’s still going ahead, despite the worsening pandemic. Although he started planning this months ago, before his poll numbers took the dive, I suspect even then he saw it as possibly his last chance to live out his dictator fantasy.